From seeing the date of the previous blog post to
nvidel.com, you have probably noticed that I haven't been blogging for a while.
The intro to this site helps to express my affinity for fashion, hair, makeup,
lifestyle, and everything related and between those things. It's true. I enjoy
it all. However, I didn't feel that I was aligning with what I professed to
enjoy. And due to my personal ethics and values, I believe I should. For me,
it's like going to see a nutritionist that obviously appears not to adopt a
nutritious lifestyle. I would be less inclined to take advice from that nutritionist.
Don't get me wrong. My goal is not to be skinny. My goal is
to love who I am and admire my reflection to the extent possible. After much
introspection, I've learned what that goal looks and feels like. It won't be
perfect and I'm OK with that. I just know that forcing myself to be accountable
to the World Wide Web is a last-ditch effort (one that I hope works). So, I'm
giving this a try. I kinda dared myself to do this raw video on YouTube,
because I ran out of excuses.
"I'm too old."
"...too fat."
"...uncomfortable in my skin."
The list of excuses I've given myself, and loved ones is
endless. Who doesn't have insecurities? Really. I'm sure there's someone out
there who believes he or she is perfect, but I have yet to meet him/her. Since
I've been wanting to increase my web footprint and be more open, I'm exposing
my vulnerabilities, in hopes to get over on some of my insecurities--all on
YouTube. My channel is: (you guessed it) nvidel.
NVidelTV will chronicle my journey of getting back to me,
and more!
