I don't mean to tout, but life has shown me that when certain individuals don't want me around, it's usually because they haven't gotten to know me that well. By no means would I claim that everyone likes me - all of us has one or two (or more) enemies. Perhaps they are just people who tolerate or don't like us. Whatever the case, they will exist. And that's OK. I have been blessed with the personality characteristics/tools to not only build, but successfully maintain positive relationships with others (thank God). Fortunately, those whom I share these relationships with have been blessed with the same (Law of Attraction, I guess?). So, I don't necessarily 'need' more friends/fans/associates, but what can I say - I'm social! Anyway, in situations where I must be in the company of others, I like for shared interactions to be as pleasant as possible. When the desired atmosphere is hindered because of mis-perceptions, unreasonable stereotypes, or disdain; I try to do my best to address things. Such is my plight recently. I was requested to attend and work at an event. I knew that my time there would be spent with some who knew (or at least recognized) me, and others who would be meeting me for the first time. To my surprise, I had a better experience interacting to those who were meeting me for the first time. It seems the people who knew me wanted to not know me during this event. Needless to say, it left me...perplexed. My thought: "...when we're home, we have a great time chatting, and now that I see you here, you look away or pretend not to see me. What's the deal?"
No problem...
So, I took every opportunity to say hello (at minimum) each time I came across a known face. The shear look of avoidance and embarrassment was entertainment enough! So you want to be interested in the floor now?? Yeah, OK..."HI!" I even gave one old 'friend' (who shares a not-so-good first impression) a big hug...Thinking, "...this can't get any more fun!" I can't make you love me, but observing your reaction to my attempts is so much fun! Thank you!
5.07.2010
Me - Drama Free
We are more than siblings. You call me big sister, but really, I look up to you. You keep me grounded and I hold you accountable...sometimes these positions transpose. But through the years you have been invaluable to me. I love you.
I've known you all of my life. You certainly made your mark from mentor, to nemesis, to guardian and protector...you didn't always know the appropriate role to play, but we didn't turn out so bad. I can't wait to see what we grow old to become. No matter how much distance and time lay between us, we resume our relationship as if all was uninterrupted. I love you.
We got off to an awkward start...we looked at each other through the corners of our eyes in discovery...but after we began to see things from the other perspective, we came to understand each other VERY well. I get you and you get me. I enjoy the time we spend even if it is just us laughing and crying together. I love you.
I met you partying with my drink and my two step...you sang and danced right along with me. While I could never keep in step with your dance and you could not ever keep in tune with my melody, we have had a grand time entertaining ourselves (and others, I suppose). Cooler than the other side of the pillow. I can call you friend. I love you.
Catching up with you can be hard to do, but I think we both give it an honest effort. I don't always return your calls, and you consistently remind me of that. You demonstrate erratic behavior on a regular basis, and I bare through the swings as best as I can. I may not always like you, but you know...I love you.
You must be one of the sweetest individuals I know. We adore one another - well, I certainly adore you. My undying affection towards you will only strengthen over time. Looking into your eyes is a constant reminder of what love brings, and watching us grow together is more than inspiring. I love you.
It's difficult for me to include you in this, but I must reconcile my present with past experiences. Though you violated me and the trust I had in you, I learned to grow through the negative effects of what you thought was normal. I have worked to become normal again. I respect the role you play in my life, and I hope you respect my decision to never allow my children to be alone with you. You have not recognized what you have done, and I forgive you. I love you.
You have the uncanny ability to make everyone smile. I don't know how you do that! One day I'll ask if you can teach me. I know you won't be able to respond when I see you again, but I know I'll be smiling as I attentively listen. I love you.
I wish I had more time to make your acquaintance. If the cycle of life offered the same position for the both of us, we would have been sisters (I'm told). I wanted to know you. I wanted to remember you. But, as life would have it, you transitioned into the warmth of God's Love. I think I feel it every time I think of you. I love you.
I was so foolish when I was introduced to you. I should have recognized then that you were brought into my life to fulfill a vacant role. Instead, I rebelled in every way possible. I was only trying to shield and protect my feelings. I blissfully wanted things to be the way they were. I was young. I was stubborn. I did not understand that (thought indirectly - at first) you did love me. Though you may not hear me say it often to you, I love you.
I have always admired your strength and tenacity to address the seemingly impossible with courage. Because of you, I know how to walk with my head held high regardless of my environment or circumstance. You have set the standard for those around you to master the act of accomplishing challenging goals with the same boldness and determination. I hope that I have a little of that in me. When I was a young queen, you used to say that we would always be the best of friends. And you were right. We have definitely experienced personality struggles of our own; either because you were not ready for me to exhibit my strength or I demonstrated it prematurely. We travailed. You always had such foresight. I miss you more than you will ever know. I love you.
Anyone who knows the both of us, can't deny the bond that we share. You are the blueprint. You don't know, but I watched your every move (I still watch your every move). Not to observe mistakes or mishaps, but to ensure I could be just as graceful navigating through life. I cannot imagine what my life would be without you. Our relationship is more than destiny. We are history. Though I've met challenges in life, you never made me feel that I was facing them alone. The life lessons you have imparted will be with me forever. I will always have a piece of you in my heart. I love you.
I've known you all of my life. You certainly made your mark from mentor, to nemesis, to guardian and protector...you didn't always know the appropriate role to play, but we didn't turn out so bad. I can't wait to see what we grow old to become. No matter how much distance and time lay between us, we resume our relationship as if all was uninterrupted. I love you.
We got off to an awkward start...we looked at each other through the corners of our eyes in discovery...but after we began to see things from the other perspective, we came to understand each other VERY well. I get you and you get me. I enjoy the time we spend even if it is just us laughing and crying together. I love you.
I met you partying with my drink and my two step...you sang and danced right along with me. While I could never keep in step with your dance and you could not ever keep in tune with my melody, we have had a grand time entertaining ourselves (and others, I suppose). Cooler than the other side of the pillow. I can call you friend. I love you.
Catching up with you can be hard to do, but I think we both give it an honest effort. I don't always return your calls, and you consistently remind me of that. You demonstrate erratic behavior on a regular basis, and I bare through the swings as best as I can. I may not always like you, but you know...I love you.
You must be one of the sweetest individuals I know. We adore one another - well, I certainly adore you. My undying affection towards you will only strengthen over time. Looking into your eyes is a constant reminder of what love brings, and watching us grow together is more than inspiring. I love you.
It's difficult for me to include you in this, but I must reconcile my present with past experiences. Though you violated me and the trust I had in you, I learned to grow through the negative effects of what you thought was normal. I have worked to become normal again. I respect the role you play in my life, and I hope you respect my decision to never allow my children to be alone with you. You have not recognized what you have done, and I forgive you. I love you.
You have the uncanny ability to make everyone smile. I don't know how you do that! One day I'll ask if you can teach me. I know you won't be able to respond when I see you again, but I know I'll be smiling as I attentively listen. I love you.
I wish I had more time to make your acquaintance. If the cycle of life offered the same position for the both of us, we would have been sisters (I'm told). I wanted to know you. I wanted to remember you. But, as life would have it, you transitioned into the warmth of God's Love. I think I feel it every time I think of you. I love you.
I was so foolish when I was introduced to you. I should have recognized then that you were brought into my life to fulfill a vacant role. Instead, I rebelled in every way possible. I was only trying to shield and protect my feelings. I blissfully wanted things to be the way they were. I was young. I was stubborn. I did not understand that (thought indirectly - at first) you did love me. Though you may not hear me say it often to you, I love you.
I have always admired your strength and tenacity to address the seemingly impossible with courage. Because of you, I know how to walk with my head held high regardless of my environment or circumstance. You have set the standard for those around you to master the act of accomplishing challenging goals with the same boldness and determination. I hope that I have a little of that in me. When I was a young queen, you used to say that we would always be the best of friends. And you were right. We have definitely experienced personality struggles of our own; either because you were not ready for me to exhibit my strength or I demonstrated it prematurely. We travailed. You always had such foresight. I miss you more than you will ever know. I love you.
Anyone who knows the both of us, can't deny the bond that we share. You are the blueprint. You don't know, but I watched your every move (I still watch your every move). Not to observe mistakes or mishaps, but to ensure I could be just as graceful navigating through life. I cannot imagine what my life would be without you. Our relationship is more than destiny. We are history. Though I've met challenges in life, you never made me feel that I was facing them alone. The life lessons you have imparted will be with me forever. I will always have a piece of you in my heart. I love you.
5.05.2010
So Me Not Answering the Phone Isn't a Hint to You?
Just when I thought you got the hint that I was over you; just when I thought you understood me when I said, "No, we can't be friends!"; just when I figured you figured that there really was no point in chatting it up on the phone...YOU CALL ME! My phone rang and rang...you even had the nerve to leave a message as if I owed you a returned call...I don't owe you a call, man. You owe me...if you could reimburse the time I spent with you, I would ask for that back too! But I can't, now can I? No, I have to "rise above" and chuck it up as a lesson learned...Since I know you'll read this (because you seem to find me everywhere), can you do me a favor? Can you just stop, please. Stop calling me and stop asking mutual friends to check on me. I'm fine - really! I just don't want to be reminded of you and what we had every time I see your number on my caller ID. Done. From now on, if I don't answer your phone call, take the hint. I don't want to answer. I don't want to talk to you, and I don't want to be your hommie, hommieloverfriend, or anything close.
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