A few months ago, I hit one of the lower points in my life, where I [somehow] allowed myself to think lesser of who I know I am. After being in that state for a time (too long to be honest), help came along (thank God) and got me on my way. I began to affirm who I am; reminded of and recognized the stuff I was made of; started reengaging my spirituality / faith, stimulating my mind (particularly the creative side of my brain), and increasing an awareness of my physical health. I've experienced enough to know that life is full of ups and downs, and we've got to do our best to pull from the resources we have in reach. Yet, with the recent mishaps, I found myself asking, "What's going on?" and "What am I doing wrong?" -- two actual questions that I sent in a text to a few of my friends. It came on the heels of a text exchange (between two of us) the night before. Knowing the details of things and how both she and I respond to perceived calamity, she sent a message reading: "So, did you cry yet? I tried last night ('cause my heart was racing), but nothing happened. Then I just simply said 'Jesus help me.' and went to sleep." I looked at my phone - wiping my tears, and replied, "I wept. Shortest verse in the book of [me]..." No matter what has happened in my life, I've always searched for ways to humor myself. I suppose since God gave me the healing gift of humor, I use it to heal my own hurt.
We've all seen this before: the "woe is me" / "why me?" inquiry that we portray or verbalize to the Heavens. This is what we do. We are all guilty of this, from birth to adulthood. And when we're through, we get ourselves together and keep pushing until we can push no longer--or at least we hope. There's no crime in asking why. The crime is in giving up on who you are, and who you have the potential to become. With that same spirit, I made moves. Wherever you may be in your journey, remember to use all that God has given you. It's yours for the taking. Then, keep it movin'! As with everything else in my soundtrack-of-a-life, here's one song for this season: Soul II Soul's Keep on Movin'. Listen here if you care to, and enjoy!
